And The Journey Begins

And The Journey Begins, Day 1 – Finding Out I Am Pregnant:

Who here has heard of all of the early pregnancy symptoms to look for: nausea, sore boobs, enlarged/darker nipples, frequent urination, back pains, this list really could go on?! I am here to tell you; those symptoms do not always happen. For me I was tired, oh so tired and really that was it. I work out three times a week with a personal trainer (remember the PCOS and struggles with weight). I took one week off and was ready to get back at it. As I am putting on my yoga pants, I realized they are a little snug – I may have stopped at Chick Fil A one too many times during that week off, sorry not sorry! I tell myself I am really going to have to have a no excuse, really push myself kind of workout week. I get myself mentally ready for this fabulous workout I am about to experience. I walk into the gym with a big ole smile on my face and my trainer gets me set up to do box jumps – this really is my favorite work out – I can now jump 24” from a squatting position. Here we go, I take the jump and OH MY GOD, what the hell just happened to my boobs, who pissed them off? I do a quick push check and everything is great with the girls – ok one more jump, OH MY GOD, please for the love of all things good, no more jumps! Another quick push test on the girls, both are perfect. I get through this “no excuse” workout, I believe with only one or two secret tears that I quickly wiped away, went home and thought to myself what in the world is going on with me. My day goes on and I don’t think too much of the workout until later that afternoon when I am trying to keep one eye open and focus on getting the house cleaned. oh did I mention I have my house on the market to make a BIG TIME move back to Charleston, SC where I am from and I am trying to get things ready for showings this weekend. Yeah there’s that going on! Anyhow, I’m now sitting there, like I said, one eye open trying to stay awake and I pull up my trusty period tracker app – 5 days late, no biggie, I have been later than this before. In my foggy tiredness I think to myself I am supposed to go out for yummy cocktails with my gym (we are celebrating the gym’s 4thbirthday, and honestly my gym is cooler than yours…wink wink). So I call A.J. and ask if he would pick me up a test, just to have some peace of mind, but I am sure I have him freaking out because I am not supposed to be able to get pregnant. A.J. being himself, super sweet, says of course in his very laid-back voice. He walks through the door and I jump up, both eyes now open and run to my bathroom (locking him, the dogs and cats out – I need to have no interruptions for this test). First test, the First Response digital that will show me a yes+ or no-, here we go…Holy cow I feel like I have been waiting for 53 hours, that’s ok though, I have the 3-pack test box and there is a traditional 1 or 2 pink lines. I know these are very quick and onto the second test and within seconds there are TWO PINK LINES!! I look at the digital and that bad boy is showing a yes+. Say WHAT! I AM PREGNANT! I go rushing out of the room, like a bat out of hell, and there sits Mr. Cool, Calm and Collected. Honey can you please get on my level of freak out mode! Don’t get me wrong, he is super excited, but he is super laid-back. I call my Mom in pure excitement and disbelief that this may actually be happening for me. Next my sister, oh wait, I need to stop telling people, you know etiquette says to wait until after the first trimester.  Who am I kidding – a call to my 2 besties – now I’m done (for today anyways). A few minutes later I get a call from my realtor, someone wants to swing by in 30 minutes to view my home. In my excitement I explain to her right now is not a good time and spill the beans of what just happened. Oops! Now to get myself in check and get ready to head out and celebrate with my gym. So what do I do about drinking? Should I get a mocktail, do I just drink water and hope no one notices and ask questions (I’ve had drinks with my gym friends and they would likely ask questions) I like my occasional cocktail/sipping on wine, you know how that is! I decide on a good old fashion Coke a Cola Classic.  A.J. and I get there a bit early to grab a bite to eat before people show up. As people are arriving, my body tells me, homegirl you ain’t staying out long, it is time for you to go to sleep! I get through hanging out for a bit then head home to get some much-needed sleep. The next morning, I go ahead and test one more time to see if something changed overnight, still preggers! Now to wait for Monday to call my Doctor’s office and get in to confirm through a blood test. How many tests did you take before you actually believed you are in fact pregnant? I think I took a total of 23 – that may total one an hour – was that too many? What have your early pregnancy symptoms been?

The start of TWO PINK LINES

Hey y’all! My name is Lindsay Goodwin. I am a 36-year-old (soon to be) Southern Haute Mama. I am very excited to be sharing my pregnancy journey with y’all. My journey, in a way, started around 2006 when I was diagnosed with Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). For those that do not know what PCOS is, in layman’s terms when it comes to pregnancy, fertility is almost nonexistent and getting pregnant ain’t easy. I have been told since diagnosis that conceiving a baby naturally would probably not be in the cards for me. My best chances would be through a doctor’s intervention or adoption.

After my diagnosis, it took me quite a while to come to terms with this difficult, heartbreaking news; you see with PCOS, it is not only my fertility that is affected. I feel like I am in a constant battle with my body from weight gain, acne, crazy chin hairs that will pop out every once in a while, often times irregular periods and then the diagnosis of type 2 diabetes (which is an associated condition). These are to name just a few of my symptoms of PCOS.

To get you to understand where I am today, I feel like I need to let you in on an even harder side of my life. From 2010 – 2016 I was with an amazing man (2 of those years we were married). Kids were not a top priority for us as a couple until 2016 when we purchased our house and felt like we were ready to take the next step to start a family. Knowing my fertility issues, we figured we would see what happened for a year and if a pregnancy did not happen we would turn to doctors for help. My husband’s life was cut way too short in October 2016 and I thought my dreams once again of having a family were gone, yet again.

Here we are now in 2019, and I found my A.J. He is a compassionate, caring, sweet and loving man that I am lucky enough to call my guy! A.J. and I met a while ago and have been able to grow into a very loving relationship, and I think quite a cute couple. In widow terms, I have found my Chapter 2 and am very thankful for that and for him!

Friday, February 1, 2019, A.J. called me on his way home and I asked him to bring me a pregnancy test home. I don’t have “pregnancy” symptoms, but I feel strange and I am 5 days late, which isn’t necessarily uncommon, but I can tell something is off. I’m sure he thinks I am crazy, but I need a nap before he gets home and now too tired to get my butt off the couch to go to the store myself. Once he arrived to the house, I B lined it to the restroom to see if I am going to pass or fail another test. In the box of tests, there is an easy to read digital test with a yes+ or no-. I choose this test first, but my word this is taking forever so I figure since I have to tinkle again (nerves!) I might as well take the traditional 1 or 2 pink lines test. As I am watching, I see something strange – 2 VERY STRONG PINK LINES! Holy tamales, I AM PREGNANT, no doctors, no medicine, an ALL-NATURAL baby that is now growing in my belly!!

Monday, February 4, 2019, I head to my primary physician for the blood test to confirm the now 4 home pregnancy tests that all came back with a big fat positive! Now time to wait for the phone call to confirm if I am in fact pregnant or to learn that those now 9 home pregnancy tests are big fat liars! Seriously y’all, it is now confirmed through the lab…I am in fact PREGNANT!!! Here’s to the start of my pregnancy journey…check back later for more exciting updates on this Southern Haute Mama!